Post D&C Update

Well, my d&c was last Tuesday.

It really wasn't that bad...I had a small meltdown when we got called back into the outpatient "holding area" and the nurse started asking me what we wanted to do with the remains. But other than that, I only cried a few tears and I was good.

We got there and checked in, and in total I think we were there maybe 4-4.5 hours. I don't even remember the anesthesia knocking me out, but it did while we were in the OR. I never did a countdown or anything, they put something in my IV before we went into the OR and a few minutes later I was out. I woke up coughing like crazy, I couldn't breathe. I guess they had just taken the breathing tube out. Then I sat in recovery for about an hour, drank some Dr. Pepper, and we left.

The worst part of recovery was the horrible sore throat for about 24 hours from the breathing tube. I never had any cramping except for about a minute after I woke up. I only bled a lot for the day of. It was the 6th, today is the 15th and I'm still spotting brown. I go for my check-up next Tuesday and I have a huge list of questions...this is my second loss in a row, and I'm seriously scared of it happening to me again. I am so worried that we will never have another child, and I feel like a huge failure right now. I just want Audrey to have a sibling.

I've definitely had a few crying spells since it happened, but I still think I'm somehow taking it better than I did the first loss for the most part. I don't know how. I also took a pregnancy test yesterday, just to see where things were at, and it was surprisingly stark white negative. The d&c really cleans things out quickly...I was 12 weeks, and with my natural 6 week loss (with hcg numbers MUCH lower) and it took almost three weeks for my levels to reach 0.

I'll have another update next week after my appointment.